Whether you fall...

So for all of you perfectionists out there like me...or just anyone really, having a chronic illness can be so depressing in the fact you may not be as good at things as you used to.  Personally, I was athletic, smart, a go getter, everything on top of the world with places to go and people to see.  I'm not giving all that up, but a huge chunk of my life is now devoted to chronic illness.  I can't do too much in terms of athletic activities unless it's planned or I know I'm going to hurt and adjust my schedule accordingly.  I personally feel stupid now - because i can't remember things, I space out, I get distracted, I dont understand as well and i can't find the words I'm looking for.  I won't go for a lot of positions because I simply can't be there all the time.  Thankfully I got my masters degree before the bigger issues started to kick in because hopefully that will grant me some leniency in looking for jobs in the future as far as time off (and not financial gain as originally planned).  But it is what it is - we have to take what we are given and run with it right?

So I'm obsessed with music and I've been looking for some uplifting songs and found one today by Tracey Bonham called "Whether you fall" - on youtube then downloaded it from itunes.  I love it -the theme/lyrics of the chorus - "whether you fall...means nothing at all. It's whether you get up".

Whether it's today, tomorrow, an hour from now...we're going to have our "downs" a lot more than other people...but we have to take responsibility for our "ups".  We're going to fall...who cares - we have to get up and keep on going to be happy...only we can make ourselves truly happy by going out and getting it...whatever that is.  Please go check out the song - I really think you all will relate and like it!  Let me know what you think!

p.s. Also check out "stronger woman" by Jewel...really great :)